membedah stop this train

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

saya menemukan lagu dari John Mayer, continuum album, yang judulnya Stop This Train ini sangat menyolek mood kontemplatif.

lagu ini enak.

pertama saya mendengar lagu ini langsung suka. tapi belum paham betul liriknya, hanya suka "rasa" nya, dari pertama mendengar petikan gitarnya juga.

hal kedua yang menarik kuping dan sanubari saya yang merasakan lagu ini adalah kata-kata "..go home again.." yang dengan mudahnya terdengar tanpa harus baca lirik.

saya tertarik..

"go home? kemana? apa maksudnya ya lagu ini?"

maka dimulailah, pencarian lirik lagu ini.

pertama baca, tanpa sambil dengerin lagunya, langsung suka kata kata "Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go" lalu, "had a talk with my old man, said help me understand, he said turn 68, you'll renegociate.." dan satu lagi, "John, honestly we'll never stop this train"

menarik.

lalu, sambil didengarkan lagunya, sambil dibaca liriknya..

lagu ini kemudian bertransformasi menjadi seperti cerita seorang teman di tengah malam dalam rangka membagi kebingungan, banyaknya benang pikiran yang numpang lewat minta diurai.

kemudian yang membuat saya terdiam sejenak (sebelum setelahnya saya selalu mengulang-ulang lagu ini di playlist) adalah,

sebelum klimaks mulai bagian "So scared of getting older", lagu di pause dulu dengan alunan gitar.

jadi, klimaks lagu ini benar-benar terasa.

dan sambil baca liriknya,

So scared of getting older, I'm only good at being young --khaha, saya rasa hampir semua "youngsters" di usia saya sekarang merasakan ini, atau setidaknya PERNAH merasakan ini once in their moment of life.
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun --ya ya, menipu diri sendiri, khahahahaha *tertawa cynical*
Had a talk with my old man, Said help me understand, He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate --bagian ini, yang dari awal baca lirik tanpa musik saja sudah menarik saya, apalagi pas dilagukan..aduh..bagus sekali. gmana ya, yang kebayang, seperti si John Mayer ini cerita sama bapaknya, dia bingung kenapa hidupnya terasa cepat sekali..atau..mendadak hilang tujuan hidup dan bingung (ya ampun..saya atau teman teman saya sering punya perasaan gini), terus bapaknya, yang dengan kalem dan penuh kelumrahan (mungkin ya, ini interpretasi saya) cuma bilang, turn 68, u'll renegociate. kha ha.

"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train" --satu rangkaian, petuah dari sang ayah, "don't stop this train, jangan, jangan semenit pun menyesali dimana kamu berada sekarang, tapi jangan pikir ayah tidak mengerti, tapi memang "kereta" ini tidak akan diberhentikan" dengan kata lain, terima saja lah, nak..

See once in a while when it's good, It'll feel like it should --ya when it's gud, then it'll feel like it should..tapi..

And they're all still around, And you're still safe and sound, And you don't miss a thing --iya, tapi..
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark --iya, tapi kalo udah begini..hah..

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again, I can't take this speed it's moving in, I know I can't --yup, tidak bisa diberhentikan memang, apalagi berputar balik.
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train --alangkah sebuah kesimpulan.

a bit depressive mungkin ya, interpretasi saya.

hmm, life is, sometimes.

but we'll never stop this train after all, let's live it and make it meaningful at least :]

kembali pada sebuah quote yang mudah dikutip dan diucap, tapi kalau sudah mulai dipikir tidak semudah itu.

"segala sesuatu, semuanya, adalah sementara"

kha ha.