Saturday, October 25, 2014

motherhood in reality; comment (or questions) and answer

imaginary interviews with mothers these day 

comment:
how wonderful! how can u still do a creative work and create things while raising ur daughter?

answer:
i can not..

it's not always rainbows and unicorns..well, there ARE, sometimes..but it takes lot of time management exercise which involve a lot of tears, thousands whys and a bit drama.
so yeah, in reality, i can not do a creative work. i'm a pragmatist now. creative work u say? *laughing* it's mere a lipstick, really just on a surface, u should see far beneath it.

comment:
how can u involve ur daughter (such a little girl) in ur workplace?

answer:
i must.

it's not a matter of can or can not. i must bring her to my workplace, sometimes. it's not what i ALWAYS want, but something that i must do, in order to fulfill my deadlines. finish my workload so it doesn't split my focus while i'm nurturing my daughter. so i can think clearly what i'm gonna cook for her, doesn't yell at once when she made a normal-kid-mess, doesn't break down and cry straight away when she won't sleep and ask for another round of playtime. in short, to help me keep my sanity.

comment:
how lovely! ur daughter is so calm and sweet..u must have taking care of her veeery good..

answer:
... 
*no words, just smile. "wave and smile boys, waaave and smile," said the penguins.

well..u doesn't get to see me at home OFTEN, d'ya? raising and taking care of her very good..let's see..
it, sometimes, in hard days, involve looots of tears, excessive needs to be understood by ur partner VERY MUCH, envying all of ur fellow mother/friend on ur social media circle (because they can still socialized while u don't even have the chance to take a short bath), dreaming and missing the old days..in short, insanity. yes, sometimes my daughter raised by insane women.

insane.
sometimes.
really, just sometimes.

am i a bad mother?

no, i'm a normal 21st century mothers.

how's that sound?
normal enough for u?